Case Study: Drink and drugs with the crowd
I started off smoking fags at the age of 14 to try and fit in with the people I went to school with. I was not very popular with anyone in my class so I would try and fit in anywhere I could- later I found out this was the biggest mistake of my life.
Through the years, I always let people push me around. The anger of it all built up inside me for ages and when I had my first drink at the age of 14, it all came out in fighting. I loved it; I could get away from being me and hide my fear of everything behind my anger.
I met my first girlfriend at an early age. She broke my heart and since then I have never trusted any girl who I went out with, I was always paranoid that they would be cheating on me. That’s when I found drugs and I loved them more than any girl. They made me forget about everything that bothered me and put me into a world of my own, where no one could upset me.
This continued through my teenage years- always trying to find a better buzz, trying to beat the last one so I could have stories to tell of what I saw on acid. The people that I hung around with were people that lived for drugs and the party life. If they didn’t live up to this I would drop them as a friend.
I thought this life was great because I was getting the attention that I always wanted with people ringing me all day and all night for stuff. I never made any money on them I just made more drugs for me and that suited me down to the ground. As long as I got to keep away from reality I was happy.
This later backfired on me because I got into debt with dealers, which meant that I had to get more stuff to sell. It is a cut throat business and you have to do what they say or else. So, I got money off different people to pay the dealers and it was settled. But I had to keep going, I couldn’t stop- it was killing me. Little did I know how it was all going to end down the road.
Soon enough the guards got involved with everything. I lost my job, my car and my girlfriend, and it wasn’t even started yet. Just a few weeks later I got caught with an unreal amount of drugs and got arrested. This was the end of the line for me. My whole wasted life flashed before my eyes. I didn’t know what to do. I had to keep my mouth shut or die. So I did. I never said a name and still had to pay for the drugs or die.
So, here I am today: sitting around with no friends, no job, no car and 50,000 euros worth of debt over my head. Waiting to be sent to prison for a good few years. I wasted my teen years on drugs and now I am going to be wasting my adult years in jail.
This it not a life to lead. Don’t make the same mistakes I did- be yourself and don’t hide it from anyone.
